EProsnie+Chapter+Reflection+(2)

Writing this paper was an interesting process, but it was also, in a way, very therapeutic. I think that the idea of changing the past and seeing the future is intriguing to everyone. Everyone wonders about those what ifs in life. I am at a place in my life where I feel like I could really choose either. I am so unsure about so many different things that this paper really made me sit down and think about what would truly make me happy. The real deciding point was the fact that I cannot change the past at all, but I can do things to help predict my future. Writing this paper made me realize the things that I am worried about in my future. I know that I can never know for sure what is going to happen to me in five years, knowing the main things that I am unsure about will help me focus on finding ways to be in a better place with them. I enjoyed the freedom that this assignment allowed me to have. Going back in time or going into the future is obviously not possible but imagining it is really fun and leads to creative writing. I wanted to write a paper that reflected my struggle in making this decision but in the end had a final choice. As I mentioned before I could really have gone wither way. The fact that I owned up to the fact that my past experiences make me who I am and that going back would probably not do any good is really important to me. I have been living in the past and the what-ifs that accompany it for the last few months. Although I know I will still look back on the past, writing this paper made me realize that I am where I am for a reason and the past should stay in the past. I now have a form of clarity to see that I still have a big future ahead of me. I also realize that I do not need to rush into the future though, I should enjoy my present and work on figuring myself out so I can give myself the future I deserve.